Sunday, February 22, 2015

The bricks that built me

Plus 2 for being born
Plus 2 for not being born in North Korea
Minus 1 for falling in the lake
Plus 2 for almost being fearless
Minus 4 for the grades
Plus 5 for the hotty from Vegas
Minus 3 for procrastination
Plus 3 for the adventures
Plus 5 for the memories
Minus 5 for taking chemistry
Plus 2 for switching to Verizon
Minus 1 for that time i swore at my cousin
Actually plus 1 for that time i swore at my cousin
Plus 7 for being a mermaid
Plus 5 for not doing drugs
Minus 5 for being addicted to oreos
Plus 6 for being an obedient child
Minus 10 for getting caught

11 bricks
Only 11 bricks to build my castle with

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

William

 
                                       The Short spring mornings we spent running through the fields,
                              The Long summer nights we spent looking, staring at the stars and dreaming,
                                       The endless winter days we spent watching, waiting, hoping..

               Remember when we rode for so long we got lost and it felt like we were running in circles?
                 Remember when we were riding out to the castles and a wall almost collapsed on us?
    Remember when we decided to explore lake Loch Ness and i fell in? That was terrifying, i couldn't swim.
 Remember when you got sick and i was so worried because if i lost you, who would go exploring with me?

   I knew I wanted you the moment I laid eyes on you, you were the most majestic creature i had ever seen.
                                The way your body glistened in the sunlight was almost like diamonds.
           Your hair was so beautiful.. Long, black, thin, soft, and shiny, that's why I called you Cleopatra.
                   I thought that there was no better way to describe how majestically beautiful you were.
             I even wanted to pamper you with jewelry. But you hated it, and you always won that argument.


                Remember when you became William instead? I remember that day like it was yesterday.
      It was the summer we visited Granny and Grandad's farmhouse near the Dunnottar castle next to the sea.
       I told mum that you and I were going to be princesses for a day and ride out to the castle by the sea.
                  She packed us a picnic basket and said to return to the little farmhouse before sunset.
I remember how your mane glistened in the late morning light as we galloped through the fields of lavender,
                 and how my dress ripped on a tree branch when we took a break under the shade.

     We spent the entire afternoon walking on the shore, hopping on rocks, and exploring the small caves.
                            The sun was slowly starting to fall when we decided to head back.
          As we were walking side by side up the large hill right next to the castle, i stepped on something.
                                                                It was an Adder snake.
                              My adrenaline shot up so fast. I just knew it was going to attack me.
                              I thought you'd be spooked and run, and that i would never find you.
                           But instead you trampled that snake to death before i could even scream.

          That night as i explained the adventure to my mother, she patted you on the neck and praised you.
                            Then i said, "Mum, iv'e decided to change Cleopatra's name to William."
                                                                       "Why is that?"
                  "Because he trampled that snake just like Sir William Wallace trampled the English."
                     She did not proceed to tell me that Sir William did not in fact trample the English.
                                 But at a young age, nothing seemed to be more fitting or resilient.

          William, you will always be my best friend, and the most beautiful animal i have ever laid eyes on.
The memory of you is morphed into my heart like the moon and the stars, The ocean and the shore.
                     I will never forget our spring mornings, our winter days, or our summer nights.
                                    I don't know where you are, but i do know your close by.
                                     I can still feel your soft hair in my hands when I'm running,
                        and the sound of your hooves on the stone flooring when i listen close enough.
                                    Your forever in my heart, as well as everything we ever did.
                                Our adventures echo through Scotland like freedom did in 1305.






                       

Thursday, February 12, 2015

A Love Hate Relationship

I love love
love loves me,
but sometimes we fight over whose going to make dinner.
but then love cries,
because i punched love in the face.

Love once told me that i would never be able to dunk like him.
but then i got a stool,
and then love had nothing to say.
but later that night love said,
"i still cant believe you got a stool."

Love is frustrating. 
love takes up way too much room in the bed.
so i push love off
and then i feel bad cause sometimes love hits the wall.
and then i laugh, because it probably hurt.

Me and love met when we were children
love made me cry because love was stronger than i was.
love made me climb a tree,
and i fell because of love.
that was the first time i loved love. 

Me and love fight all the time,
but i never get tired of the way love feels.
except for when love brings Nerf guns.
cause well that means the beginning of a long and excruciating ugly selfie war with love.
but of course i win, because love is just too beautiful.


Wednesday, February 11, 2015

A Letter to Audrey

You once told me to be a girl with a mind, a woman with attitude, and a lady with class. 
But Audrey, when i try to be a girl with a mind i just become blind and create more and more enemies.



You once told me that the only things worth interest are linked to the heart. 

But what if the heart is linked to the very things that cause the uninteresting doubt that leads us to success?


You once said the best thing in life to hold onto is each other.

Then why do they keep letting go?


Audrey your words meant everything once, they created beauty and elegance when the world was lacking it. But then you left and they slowly faded into the hearts of the loving.



You once said that Paris is always a good idea. You were right. Paris was the best idea.

Saturday, February 7, 2015

How do i know i'm human?

Well i don't know if i am human..
All i know is that i hate pine trees and love palm trees.
i know that i hate techno and love classical,
i know that i am both cold and warm and black and white and yes and no and wrong and right..
Oops didn't mean to make that rhyme

I know that i love the moon but the sun can be mean sometimes.
I hate Isis.
I hate peanut butter,
I love Gold..

I love George Clooney so therefore i hate his wife.
But actually i don't because shes probably really nice.
Plus hes too old for me according to my Dad
But my sisters and i don't really care because hes hot
is that not human.. cause like hes pretty old.

But i am human.
Because how else would i know what its like to love and to be loved? or do i..
i don't know i cant remember.
I am  human or  i wouldn't crave money and a place in society.
I am human because sometimes i feel like the rusty ship at the bottom of the ocean that will never be pulled to the surface,
or the highest apple in the tree that no one cares to climb and pick because they might fall and get hurt.
Or maybe its because they stole my parking spot so i pushed them out of the tree.
I am human.





Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Crayons

"Wow look at you! How did you grow up so fast?"
"last time I saw you, you were like this tall."
"You're next."

Guys look i haven't even been to neverland yet